On, In, and Around Mondays: Edge of the New Year's Orchard

She wrote of challah dotted with raisins. In The Spirit of Food, Hathaway spoke of the moments making this heavenly braided bread for the Sabbath.

I thought about all the times I have tried to make bread—her idyllic description compared to my reality. There was no comparison.

This has been a year of admitting things like, "I can't make bread very well" and "I will probably never have a garden that results in actual vegetables." This year, I have left behind more than a few Wendell Berry/Laura Ingalls dreams.

So that, reading The Spirit of Food, I felt a sense of disconnection and slight sorrow. My realities are far from the visions of sweet homesteading and tomato vines overrun with fruit, of jams bubbling on the stove and land calling my name (as if I could do it justice with the turn of my unskilled shovel).

I came to the end of my assigned reading. Challah was baking, raisins plumping. And she, the successful baker, failed to keep her bees. Bees? It had been a new, hopeful endeavor that year, but the hives emptied, and the honey dreams disintegrated.

Wild bees came, in time, took up residence, redeemed the emptiness and her efforts. I think I was supposed to be comforted by this. But it was something else that caught my attention.

Little girl in the orchard, reaching.

Charlotte runs ahead, scampering through the bramble at the edge of the orchard to pick low-hanging fruit. When we catch up, Bea, her baby fingers grasping at everything, pulls at leaves, twigs, finally an apple.

This vision promised to turn my whole year around. Year past, and maybe year forward too.

I want to be the little girl who reaches for low-hanging fruit. I can make bread if I will let myself do it with a bread machine and a mix. I can grow rosemary and sage (but not thyme) in my garden, and gather tomatoes from the farmer's market. The whole orchard may never be mine, but an apple is waiting. Now I must simply reach. At the edge of the orchard. Reach.





Photos by L.L. Barkat.

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Year of Dreams

You want to do everything, he said.

How could I explain to my husband? It's true. I have dreams.

Not quite so extensive as everything, but dreams nonetheless. Not resolutions, mind you. After all, how many people really keep their New Year's resolutions? And where is the inspiration in resolutions?

Dreams, on the other hand, seem to be exactly the thing. They are open ended... at either end. If I say I am dreaming of being a skater, it doesn't matter that I can already skate on one foot and skate backwards and do the setup for a jump. It doesn't matter either if I never do a double axle. I understand that dreams can be unpredictable, that sometimes we don't even know what form our longings will take, in what dream they'll show up.

Still, this new year I am dreaming of dreams...

I want to skate in winter's lap, glide through months on one foot, spin past summer with a bag of French verbs that say, 'Mon cheri you can be a flutist again, brush up that guitar, dance if you wish, finish writing your book with a figure eight, be a better poet and friend, delve into the life of Dorothy Day, share a hot drink with Samuel Hazo, find beginnings and endings, put to bed a few old griefs, trace your dreams on the ice and follow them.'

Happy New Year, my friends. I hope you are dreaming too.


Eiffel Tower photo, by L.L. Barkat.

NEW LINKS TO THIS POST:
Charity's A Plan and a Future

POETRY FRIDAY:
LL's Random Acts of Poetry: Public Display of Affection at High Calling Blogs
Erica Hale's Poetry Friday
Mom2Six's New Year Poetry
Sarah's Enough (scroll to bottom of post)
nAncY's For LL, a poem on sweet dreams
Laure's The 1 O'Clock Afternoon Hour
Jennifer's Whatsoever Things

JUST BECAUSE:
I didn't know people named years when I wrote this post. But Ann does. I like that.